So What happened today... Like I said I need to start giving people names, because this initial stuff is no longer working.I have people who all have like the same initials.. So I will simply say
******* DISCLAIMER!!!!************
All names have been changed to protect the innocent( well actually the gulity) ! Anyway I see this guy who is in my lab and i wanted to make sure we had nothing to turn in... I didn't go anyway. He was all on some " Let Me get your number so i know what edition of the book to get...." I'm like whatever my number is (678) 999-8212 not thinking anything of it... After that's exchanged he starts talking to *Number 2 and then he and Number 2 both look at me. As if I don't know what they are talking about. *Yeah,it was note worthy i guess. Smh...I think I need to further detail about that event at a later date...(plus i got a meeting with my professor!!!)
Monday, March 30, 2009
... We getting to know each other!
I will get around to writing part 3... but in the mean time. I want to write about something other... ( I promise i will link everything!) Anyways. Life is interesting. I feel kinda paranoid about somthing, but I will discuss that later. Right now, I am currently trying to come up with a definition of what talking is in my mind. I mean, this guy I was having a converation was like talking is getting ready to get in a relationship and to me that is " Reaching"... i mean just because me and you are talking does not mean in any way that we are exclusive.
Why should we be forced into a false title? I define talking to someone as getting to know them. Essentially, I am talking to a few at the moment, and exclusive with none, doing what? Talking and nothing more. I wish someone would touch me. I am what they have called in the past an " ICE PRINCESS" I don't need to " experience" every man on earth to feel complete. That just isn't me, and I don't buy that garbage that every guy does something different... Yeah messing around with every guy will get you a trip to the clinic. Thanks, but Hell to the NO!!!!!!!
So yeah talking to me is getting to know people, none of this relationship business. That is why it is called a relationship, it is self explanatory, it is cut and dry. There is no guess work, but I admit that talking is very complex... but all you hoes stop reaching!
Why should we be forced into a false title? I define talking to someone as getting to know them. Essentially, I am talking to a few at the moment, and exclusive with none, doing what? Talking and nothing more. I wish someone would touch me. I am what they have called in the past an " ICE PRINCESS" I don't need to " experience" every man on earth to feel complete. That just isn't me, and I don't buy that garbage that every guy does something different... Yeah messing around with every guy will get you a trip to the clinic. Thanks, but Hell to the NO!!!!!!!
So yeah talking to me is getting to know people, none of this relationship business. That is why it is called a relationship, it is self explanatory, it is cut and dry. There is no guess work, but I admit that talking is very complex... but all you hoes stop reaching!
Part deux
Let me say that you must read the previous entry ( here) in order to follow what I am talking about.
Anyway one day( 2006) I'm chilling in my room before work and life is just chill, I'm happy and I'm cool. I'm doing me, my friend " B" is coming to get me and things are peachy. Let me say that in order to get to my house " B" must pass " T's " house. I paid it no mind.
She gets to my house we at the crib just chillin, and what not. Talking about dude's as usual. I'm plotting to talk to "J" cuz "D" was getting too serious saying he loved me and ish.( You don't love me, you love the thought of getting it in*smh)Not to mention my father was on some other ish, becasue "D" wasn't black. Basically he made me sit down and watch Jungle Fever. LLs Very enlightening. I managed to get the point and laugh (at Gator) So it was win win.
Any way I'm plotting to talk to " J" and low and behold he has a brother... named "C"... "C" is the bomb, I mean he got a 2006 Mustang Convertible all black with red interior( I think, if memory serves) Anyways "B" decides she is gonna get with him and take him to prom.
************* MIND YOU THIS IS ALL BEFORE PROM*********************
As if he could read our minds. " T" begins to chirp "B", but she isn't responding. So I'm like this dude is bugging! Defintion of Bug-A-Boo anyways I'm all annoyed and so is she. So i tell him some stuff like she left my phone at my house and he isn't buying it. He proceeds to tell me they are engaged. * Drops JAWWWWWWW.......... UHM really now player? Me and her are seniors and he graduated the year before, but engaged and underage much? Not to mention there was no ring. Yeah I know you don't have to have a ring, but if a dude really expects to be taken seriously he should have a ring.
So this chick is engaged and planing to take another dude to prom! Wild right? The wild part is we all do end up going to prom together. "J" me and "D"... "T" and "B" and some other people. I'm going to give everyone names, cuz this initial ish is getting really complex and pretty soon there are gonna be a lot of initals that are the same. So stay tuned... for part tres!
Anyway one day( 2006) I'm chilling in my room before work and life is just chill, I'm happy and I'm cool. I'm doing me, my friend " B" is coming to get me and things are peachy. Let me say that in order to get to my house " B" must pass " T's " house. I paid it no mind.
She gets to my house we at the crib just chillin, and what not. Talking about dude's as usual. I'm plotting to talk to "J" cuz "D" was getting too serious saying he loved me and ish.( You don't love me, you love the thought of getting it in*smh)Not to mention my father was on some other ish, becasue "D" wasn't black. Basically he made me sit down and watch Jungle Fever. LLs Very enlightening. I managed to get the point and laugh (at Gator) So it was win win.
Any way I'm plotting to talk to " J" and low and behold he has a brother... named "C"... "C" is the bomb, I mean he got a 2006 Mustang Convertible all black with red interior( I think, if memory serves) Anyways "B" decides she is gonna get with him and take him to prom.
************* MIND YOU THIS IS ALL BEFORE PROM*********************
As if he could read our minds. " T" begins to chirp "B", but she isn't responding. So I'm like this dude is bugging! Defintion of Bug-A-Boo anyways I'm all annoyed and so is she. So i tell him some stuff like she left my phone at my house and he isn't buying it. He proceeds to tell me they are engaged. * Drops JAWWWWWWW.......... UHM really now player? Me and her are seniors and he graduated the year before, but engaged and underage much? Not to mention there was no ring. Yeah I know you don't have to have a ring, but if a dude really expects to be taken seriously he should have a ring.
So this chick is engaged and planing to take another dude to prom! Wild right? The wild part is we all do end up going to prom together. "J" me and "D"... "T" and "B" and some other people. I'm going to give everyone names, cuz this initial ish is getting really complex and pretty soon there are gonna be a lot of initals that are the same. So stay tuned... for part tres!
O But He is cool....
I have learned to not be friends with boyfriends and girlfriends. I got caught in the middle of Bobby and Whitney meets Chris and Rihanna for lunch type of situation. "T" was the guy and he was cool, I really liked him as a friend. I love the male perspective more so than the female perspective. Females are very unforgiving, dudes let me get away with a lot! So me and him are really cool and whatever. He has a girlfriend named " B" now me and "B" are cool, she is very distrustful of females. With reason though, not like some paranoid chick. I was like okay cool, we are all friends here.
Well I guess " T" had other plans. Because I found myself in the most dramatic of places on earth. I tried to be friends with both of them, offering them advice when one came to me. Providing each with an alibi every time they were off cheating on each other."T" figured that out and got really upset with me for not telling him "B" was getting it in with another guy. I simply said it wasn't my place to get in between them and he was mad (drunkenly cussing me out.) Fast Forward to after Prom. My ex "D" is suspicious I am talking to this guy " J" in his class. I was talking to " J" but that's not the point. The point is "B" goes and tell "D" I was tryna get with "J"... She was supposed to be my girl. Seems "T" told her i tried to eff him at prom. As if I really need to try to eff anyone... Dumb broads. Why does "T" tell her this? Cuz i was a bad friend to him.
I wish i could make this BS up, but that's part 1 of the series. This only gets deeper, the story only twisted, relationships get broken, trust gets lost, I lose my mind and yeah. lol Stay tuned!
Well I guess " T" had other plans. Because I found myself in the most dramatic of places on earth. I tried to be friends with both of them, offering them advice when one came to me. Providing each with an alibi every time they were off cheating on each other."T" figured that out and got really upset with me for not telling him "B" was getting it in with another guy. I simply said it wasn't my place to get in between them and he was mad (drunkenly cussing me out.) Fast Forward to after Prom. My ex "D" is suspicious I am talking to this guy " J" in his class. I was talking to " J" but that's not the point. The point is "B" goes and tell "D" I was tryna get with "J"... She was supposed to be my girl. Seems "T" told her i tried to eff him at prom. As if I really need to try to eff anyone... Dumb broads. Why does "T" tell her this? Cuz i was a bad friend to him.
I wish i could make this BS up, but that's part 1 of the series. This only gets deeper, the story only twisted, relationships get broken, trust gets lost, I lose my mind and yeah. lol Stay tuned!
Confessions...
I have a confession to make...
I like drama... Big or small. Short or tall. Come one. Come all. It's drama time y'all. So I was at work one day, talking to the manager. Goofin' he is no more than like 3 years older than me so we can talk about life and have similar experiences and can give perspectives. I look up and low and behold here comes my ex( a former employee) Let me explain to you me and him started officially talking on my 18th birthday and by time i had turned 19 I was over the dramatic ass situation. My ex "D" is not black. He is actually Half White and Asian. I liked him cause he was different, well not really. He was just the token wannabe black guy. Anyways things were cool when we initially started talking then my father found out, and made life and seeing D difficult. Anyway the reason why it ended was because I was in school met a new guy ( who played a bigger role in my life than i expected) Not to mention he thought i was cheating on him....( Yeah will blog that too).
Anyway back to the story. He sees me and I see him, coulda sworn water was under the bridge after all this time and finally becoming civil. This dude wants to act salty and shake his head when he sees me... Let's not bring up the fact that before me this dude did not know what a polo was and almost dropped outta high school( which he eventually did) But the blasphemy of this clown shaking his head when he sees me. I laughed at him, like always because this clown is a joke. I should tell you about his underage girlfriend saying I'm jealous of her... lol... o yes I'm so jealous that i don't have a boyfriend who is 21 years old, living at home with his parents, with no diploma, who is working in fast food. He sounds like the man of my dreams. Get the eff out.( Will blog about that too.)
I don't feel bad though, because he acts like this towards all his exes. He feels some type of way because he said all that ish that gets normal girls all vulnerable and open. Me? not phased. He definitely tried and failed miserably...plus i heard he was a jack rabbit if you catch my drift, glad i didn't waste my time!
I like drama... Big or small. Short or tall. Come one. Come all. It's drama time y'all. So I was at work one day, talking to the manager. Goofin' he is no more than like 3 years older than me so we can talk about life and have similar experiences and can give perspectives. I look up and low and behold here comes my ex( a former employee) Let me explain to you me and him started officially talking on my 18th birthday and by time i had turned 19 I was over the dramatic ass situation. My ex "D" is not black. He is actually Half White and Asian. I liked him cause he was different, well not really. He was just the token wannabe black guy. Anyways things were cool when we initially started talking then my father found out, and made life and seeing D difficult. Anyway the reason why it ended was because I was in school met a new guy ( who played a bigger role in my life than i expected) Not to mention he thought i was cheating on him....( Yeah will blog that too).
Anyway back to the story. He sees me and I see him, coulda sworn water was under the bridge after all this time and finally becoming civil. This dude wants to act salty and shake his head when he sees me... Let's not bring up the fact that before me this dude did not know what a polo was and almost dropped outta high school( which he eventually did) But the blasphemy of this clown shaking his head when he sees me. I laughed at him, like always because this clown is a joke. I should tell you about his underage girlfriend saying I'm jealous of her... lol... o yes I'm so jealous that i don't have a boyfriend who is 21 years old, living at home with his parents, with no diploma, who is working in fast food. He sounds like the man of my dreams. Get the eff out.( Will blog about that too.)
I don't feel bad though, because he acts like this towards all his exes. He feels some type of way because he said all that ish that gets normal girls all vulnerable and open. Me? not phased. He definitely tried and failed miserably...plus i heard he was a jack rabbit if you catch my drift, glad i didn't waste my time!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Wreckless...
Okay,is it just me or as females are we collectively loosing our damn minds?
Once upon a time I was a home wrecker and proud of it lol. ( Will write that blog at a later date.) Well I never " consumated" that so it wasn't really home wrecking it was more so emotional than physical. Lol... after that( again you will have to read that blog when it goes up) I told myself I was never going to aid a black man in disrespecting another black woman...Well i was 18 then and clearly am 21 now. I had to make some decisions then and think some things out then for future references. Here is what i came up with.
A. You are not special. You are not the entree', at the end of the day... who is he with? Not you!Don't try that bs.
B. You may think that because he is leaving her to be with you, that you are special. Well you may be special, but doesn't he leave his girl to chill with his boys? Yep.
C. You try to tell yourself that he is gonna leave her for you, cuz you are the Sugar Honey Iced Tea. Can I slap the hell outta you? If he was gonna leave her, he woulda been done left right? Smarten up!
D. Here's my fave. Why do you want him? If he is cheating on her with you,won't he cheat on you with someone else? Listen to Ginuwine's song " What's so different"... and really ask yourself, What is so different?
E. Silly chicks are so eager talking about I'll take your man, if he'll stray over some easy jump, then I don't want him.
So this is the reason, I chose to keep guys as friends, and not pursue relations or relationships with them. Life is less complex that way. As long as you can decipher what is going on for what it really is then you good. It's when you think you can change the playa, when your game get's busted.
Once upon a time I was a home wrecker and proud of it lol. ( Will write that blog at a later date.) Well I never " consumated" that so it wasn't really home wrecking it was more so emotional than physical. Lol... after that( again you will have to read that blog when it goes up) I told myself I was never going to aid a black man in disrespecting another black woman...Well i was 18 then and clearly am 21 now. I had to make some decisions then and think some things out then for future references. Here is what i came up with.
A. You are not special. You are not the entree', at the end of the day... who is he with? Not you!Don't try that bs.
B. You may think that because he is leaving her to be with you, that you are special. Well you may be special, but doesn't he leave his girl to chill with his boys? Yep.
C. You try to tell yourself that he is gonna leave her for you, cuz you are the Sugar Honey Iced Tea. Can I slap the hell outta you? If he was gonna leave her, he woulda been done left right? Smarten up!
D. Here's my fave. Why do you want him? If he is cheating on her with you,won't he cheat on you with someone else? Listen to Ginuwine's song " What's so different"... and really ask yourself, What is so different?
E. Silly chicks are so eager talking about I'll take your man, if he'll stray over some easy jump, then I don't want him.
So this is the reason, I chose to keep guys as friends, and not pursue relations or relationships with them. Life is less complex that way. As long as you can decipher what is going on for what it really is then you good. It's when you think you can change the playa, when your game get's busted.
My First...
My First Boyfriend (official) was when i was 16. Yeah, cute right? Lol, for some reason I wanna say i was a junior and he was a sophomore...smmh... don't remember. But this scenario sounds typical of me right? Anyways he is all like " You wanna be my girlfriend?" And i was like sure why not. Let me first explain to you that it was destined to fail. One thing that I have come to learn about myself is that i love Instant Gratification. I was spoiled as a child, and i usually got what i wanted. For me relationships should (in theory) work just like this.Everything I do is with the quickness... not sex or whatever, but I like to know everything up front... intentions,boundaries, and stuff like that... NOW... but then I just went with the flow of things.
Me and "M" had talked a total of twice on the phone, before we were Bf and Gf...He was cute, and he was kinda cool in his own way. I love dorks! lol he was just that, he was like one of those guys who had collected poke'mon and had " Action Figures" but that was OK. We kinda got to know each other as we dated, and to be honest with you. It was not woking, he liked holding hands, me not so much. My best friend was constantly clowning him and it was just one of those things, I don't remember if i even kissed him( *Sad Face) I just wasn't attracted to him I guess! Lol...anyway. I made the fatal mistake of telling a mutual friend i was gonna break up with him, and that mutual friend let him know, so he broke up with me first... now that isn't even the bad part of the story, o it gets deep!!!
My best friend who was clowning him so terribly was all of the sudden his best friend. She was going over his house, and shit.So I was ma suspect. I figured they were dating after a few weeks. I just waited for her to tell me, not that i was mad or anything, cuz i was not attracted to him. I just don't like my intelligence being insulted. Does anyone? So I'm in 2nd block, chillin' and this dude who rides her bus is telling me that she tellin' everyone I don't know and that everything was all good. ( Like i was dumb) I waited until i got home and decided to call her on it. I simply asked" Is there anything you want to tell me?" This chick got defensive and had the audacity to say " Is there anything you want to know?"---- PAUSE----- Now this is where keeping it real went horribly wrong for her. You know I have mood swings. I was like " You really just gone insult my intelligence like that?" and from that point i just remember my mother coming home and looking at me like I was crazy cuz I was screaming all kinda craziness into the phone. My signature is to just hang up and leave the person messed up.
How can you be someone's best friend and even think of doing some shit like that? Anyway I was like whatever, just didn't conversate or associate with her after that point. We eventually became real cool again and are friends today, but we can never talk about the situation without someone getting heated again. The moral of the story is Make sure you and your friends have opposite taste in guys and be very very well versed in Girl Code ( even though I have been flagrantly violating it lately)
Me and "M" had talked a total of twice on the phone, before we were Bf and Gf...He was cute, and he was kinda cool in his own way. I love dorks! lol he was just that, he was like one of those guys who had collected poke'mon and had " Action Figures" but that was OK. We kinda got to know each other as we dated, and to be honest with you. It was not woking, he liked holding hands, me not so much. My best friend was constantly clowning him and it was just one of those things, I don't remember if i even kissed him( *Sad Face) I just wasn't attracted to him I guess! Lol...anyway. I made the fatal mistake of telling a mutual friend i was gonna break up with him, and that mutual friend let him know, so he broke up with me first... now that isn't even the bad part of the story, o it gets deep!!!
My best friend who was clowning him so terribly was all of the sudden his best friend. She was going over his house, and shit.So I was ma suspect. I figured they were dating after a few weeks. I just waited for her to tell me, not that i was mad or anything, cuz i was not attracted to him. I just don't like my intelligence being insulted. Does anyone? So I'm in 2nd block, chillin' and this dude who rides her bus is telling me that she tellin' everyone I don't know and that everything was all good. ( Like i was dumb) I waited until i got home and decided to call her on it. I simply asked" Is there anything you want to tell me?" This chick got defensive and had the audacity to say " Is there anything you want to know?"---- PAUSE----- Now this is where keeping it real went horribly wrong for her. You know I have mood swings. I was like " You really just gone insult my intelligence like that?" and from that point i just remember my mother coming home and looking at me like I was crazy cuz I was screaming all kinda craziness into the phone. My signature is to just hang up and leave the person messed up.
How can you be someone's best friend and even think of doing some shit like that? Anyway I was like whatever, just didn't conversate or associate with her after that point. We eventually became real cool again and are friends today, but we can never talk about the situation without someone getting heated again. The moral of the story is Make sure you and your friends have opposite taste in guys and be very very well versed in Girl Code ( even though I have been flagrantly violating it lately)
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