The Truth is...

So, I have been keeping it 100% lately... or so I have been telling myself. I told myself that I couldn't stand Thing 1... and a whole list of self fulfilling prophecies. I did at one point like him. I just didn't like the fact that he was willing to listen to a dumb broad who didn't even have her own shit together! I was mad at him that he had stopped talking to me, and getting to know me because of the things that she had to say about me. A good friend told me that things happened that way for a reason and maybe it wasn't meant to be. All this happened in like November. So now we are in April and things like "Stranger things have happened" happen. It makes me rethink a few things, why am I rethinking things, because there is a possibility that i may not even know the other side of the story.

What happened?
Today i saw him, i wasn't going to speak. Why? Because I didn't want to be perceived as eager beaver and trying to get round two crackin. I was wearing heels which make my legs look phenomenal, and give me an extra "umph". Lol. I walked passed him with a friend. Saw another friend and talked to them. It was what it was, I went and sat down at a table with my friend. Here he comes. After telling me he doesn't go out of his way ( He does). And there is this wave of Chemistry that had me thinking of what has happened.I wanted to kiss him in public... I've never wanted to kiss someone in public. Of course this chick who is not remotely cute, decides to be a blocker. I detest blockers! I really do. She is no exception. Slore!!!She is like "Hey ******" I was just annoyed. My friend asked me, why we weren't talking and I simply said" I don't know"...Because I really don't know.

Confessions...

I have a confession to make...
I like drama... Big or small. Short or tall. Come one. Come all. It's drama time y'all. So I was at work one day, talking to the manager. Goofin' he is no more than like 3 years older than me so we can talk about life and have similar experiences and can give perspectives. I look up and low and behold here comes my ex( a former employee) Let me explain to you me and him started officially talking on my 18th birthday and by time i had turned 19 I was over the dramatic ass situation. My ex "D" is not black. He is actually Half White and Asian. I liked him cause he was different, well not really. He was just the token wannabe black guy. Anyways things were cool when we initially started talking then my father found out, and made life and seeing D difficult. Anyway the reason why it ended was because I was in school met a new guy ( who played a bigger role in my life than i expected) Not to mention he thought i was cheating on him....( Yeah will blog that too).

Anyway back to the story. He sees me and I see him, coulda sworn water was under the bridge after all this time and finally becoming civil. This dude wants to act salty and shake his head when he sees me... Let's not bring up the fact that before me this dude did not know what a polo was and almost dropped outta high school( which he eventually did) But the blasphemy of this clown shaking his head when he sees me. I laughed at him, like always because this clown is a joke. I should tell you about his underage girlfriend saying I'm jealous of her... lol... o yes I'm so jealous that i don't have a boyfriend who is 21 years old, living at home with his parents, with no diploma, who is working in fast food. He sounds like the man of my dreams. Get the eff out.( Will blog about that too.)

I don't feel bad though, because he acts like this towards all his exes. He feels some type of way because he said all that ish that gets normal girls all vulnerable and open. Me? not phased. He definitely tried and failed miserably...plus i heard he was a jack rabbit if you catch my drift, glad i didn't waste my time!

She like the group, call her a groupie.

So this dude is really entertaining me. Not because he is gassing my head up, but because i thought that once you reached a certain age you were, well, I don't know mature. Any who this guy basically interpreted my compliment as me flirting, and I prolly was, but anyways he thinks i like him. Proceeds to tell people( mind you we are 21 now)that i like him. Then this dumb broad who tried to destroy my life is like, you know she likes your friend too(Thing2)... wait pause... since when does inquiring what a dude is about misconstrued as me liking him? So okay fast forward, he starts acting funny, convo is dumb, and I'm like whatever.I keeps it moving boo.

Then this chick i know comes up to me tellin' me about how i was tryna get down with him and his boy. I'm thinking" What the F*ck?" lol... Does this even sound logical to you? Yeah me either. So I laugh it off and start distancing myself, only a fool addresses rumors. One day one of my home boys(number 2) wants to have a conversation and i am like whatever, why not? We proceed to leave the setting we were in and go to a place where we can have the convo, so we get up to leave. My girl sends me this text message talking about " Be careful *Thing 1 and Thing 2 are following you." I turn around and sure enough these dudes done seen me leave with Number 2 and are following us. I laugh cause it is funny and proceed to have my conversation. Yeah uhm we are 21 & following people? I didn't know I was of concern?

* I wish this were the end of the story, but all i can say is "developing" cuz there is so much to tell. I think I'm going to call this "the groupie series"!

Maybe?

Things are finally getting back to normalcy. No more having to double check and see just what lies have been spread from day to day. I find it all to have been pretty entertaining,comical, and pathetic. Anytime you have to sabotage others to feel better about you, just let's all know you are a sad little person. I could go off and act a fool, but the reality of the situation is I don't have to. Those who try to cast a negative light on me, only see that they make themselves look bad. I don't have to talk about people or spread lies to feel good about me. That's all I'm sayin'. I don't get females, never have and never will, that's why i go hard with guys there is none of the catty BS.

As i said life is good.Be blessed!

There is one in every group...

The cock block is a miserable little soul who loves to make your life that much more complex. There is a cock block in every group and while, i knew this before. There needs to be some type of chant to wish them away... You know like how Dora says " Swiper no swiping?" Why can't the chant be like " Blocker no blocking" ? lol. The blocker is only happy when they successfully make sure your chances with whomever are significantly diminished. Why can't they channel all that energy into finding someone for themselves? ( Can you guess I am dealing with a blocker? lol) Anyway until i come up with the cure to blockerism, I will keep you posted lol.

...I am not your average chick!

I constantly ask myself, why do you act like a guy? Why can’t you just catch feelings like a normal chick? In my opinion there are three types of people in relationships, the played, the players, and those who try to play but get caught. I am a player after all relationships are just a game really. And what is game? It’s strategy! Everything in life is about strategy; if you don’t have the right strategy then you will lose and be a simp. Being sprung… well that happens to us all. Please never say never, because the day you say never is the day that karma determines you are about to be her new bussit baby! Lol. I have been influenced by real life. True story many people don’t know what they want and when you don’t set clear boundaries, problems ensue. You can say you aren’t mad when things fall short of your expectations, but the reality of the situation we all become disenchanted, because in the back of our minds we all know (male or female) we wondered what could be! So in reality, it is more beneficial to be guy minded. I rarely catch feelings, I think if I were really a guy people would say that I am an asshole. Cuz I’ve been told that I am an asshole for the way that I treat guys. So in fact, are they calling themselves assholes because that’s the way they treat girls? hmmmm I tried to remedy that in the past, but I don’t see the point when I tried acting like a girl, it just didn’t feel right o yeah and I was acting real simp. “Say that I’m simpin, sprung, all of the above.”- Neyo