They are interesting!

So What happened today... Like I said I need to start giving people names, because this initial stuff is no longer working.I have people who all have like the same initials.. So I will simply say

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All names have been changed to protect the innocent( well actually the gulity) ! Anyway I see this guy who is in my lab and i wanted to make sure we had nothing to turn in... I didn't go anyway. He was all on some " Let Me get your number so i know what edition of the book to get...." I'm like whatever my number is (678) 999-8212 not thinking anything of it... After that's exchanged he starts talking to *Number 2 and then he and Number 2 both look at me. As if I don't know what they are talking about. *Yeah,it was note worthy i guess. Smh...I think I need to further detail about that event at a later date...(plus i got a meeting with my professor!!!)

O But He is cool....

I have learned to not be friends with boyfriends and girlfriends. I got caught in the middle of Bobby and Whitney meets Chris and Rihanna for lunch type of situation. "T" was the guy and he was cool, I really liked him as a friend. I love the male perspective more so than the female perspective. Females are very unforgiving, dudes let me get away with a lot! So me and him are really cool and whatever. He has a girlfriend named " B" now me and "B" are cool, she is very distrustful of females. With reason though, not like some paranoid chick. I was like okay cool, we are all friends here.

Well I guess " T" had other plans. Because I found myself in the most dramatic of places on earth. I tried to be friends with both of them, offering them advice when one came to me. Providing each with an alibi every time they were off cheating on each other."T" figured that out and got really upset with me for not telling him "B" was getting it in with another guy. I simply said it wasn't my place to get in between them and he was mad (drunkenly cussing me out.) Fast Forward to after Prom. My ex "D" is suspicious I am talking to this guy " J" in his class. I was talking to " J" but that's not the point. The point is "B" goes and tell "D" I was tryna get with "J"... She was supposed to be my girl. Seems "T" told her i tried to eff him at prom. As if I really need to try to eff anyone... Dumb broads. Why does "T" tell her this? Cuz i was a bad friend to him.

I wish i could make this BS up, but that's part 1 of the series. This only gets deeper, the story only twisted, relationships get broken, trust gets lost, I lose my mind and yeah. lol Stay tuned!

Wreckless...

Okay,is it just me or as females are we collectively loosing our damn minds?

Once upon a time I was a home wrecker and proud of it lol. ( Will write that blog at a later date.) Well I never " consumated" that so it wasn't really home wrecking it was more so emotional than physical. Lol... after that( again you will have to read that blog when it goes up) I told myself I was never going to aid a black man in disrespecting another black woman...Well i was 18 then and clearly am 21 now. I had to make some decisions then and think some things out then for future references. Here is what i came up with.

A. You are not special. You are not the entree', at the end of the day... who is he with? Not you!Don't try that bs.
B. You may think that because he is leaving her to be with you, that you are special. Well you may be special, but doesn't he leave his girl to chill with his boys? Yep.
C. You try to tell yourself that he is gonna leave her for you, cuz you are the Sugar Honey Iced Tea. Can I slap the hell outta you? If he was gonna leave her, he woulda been done left right? Smarten up!
D. Here's my fave. Why do you want him? If he is cheating on her with you,won't he cheat on you with someone else? Listen to Ginuwine's song " What's so different"... and really ask yourself, What is so different?
E. Silly chicks are so eager talking about I'll take your man, if he'll stray over some easy jump, then I don't want him.

So this is the reason, I chose to keep guys as friends, and not pursue relations or relationships with them. Life is less complex that way. As long as you can decipher what is going on for what it really is then you good. It's when you think you can change the playa, when your game get's busted.

My First...

My First Boyfriend (official) was when i was 16. Yeah, cute right? Lol, for some reason I wanna say i was a junior and he was a sophomore...smmh... don't remember. But this scenario sounds typical of me right? Anyways he is all like " You wanna be my girlfriend?" And i was like sure why not. Let me first explain to you that it was destined to fail. One thing that I have come to learn about myself is that i love Instant Gratification. I was spoiled as a child, and i usually got what i wanted. For me relationships should (in theory) work just like this.Everything I do is with the quickness... not sex or whatever, but I like to know everything up front... intentions,boundaries, and stuff like that... NOW... but then I just went with the flow of things.

Me and "M" had talked a total of twice on the phone, before we were Bf and Gf...He was cute, and he was kinda cool in his own way. I love dorks! lol he was just that, he was like one of those guys who had collected poke'mon and had " Action Figures" but that was OK. We kinda got to know each other as we dated, and to be honest with you. It was not woking, he liked holding hands, me not so much. My best friend was constantly clowning him and it was just one of those things, I don't remember if i even kissed him( *Sad Face) I just wasn't attracted to him I guess! Lol...anyway. I made the fatal mistake of telling a mutual friend i was gonna break up with him, and that mutual friend let him know, so he broke up with me first... now that isn't even the bad part of the story, o it gets deep!!!

My best friend who was clowning him so terribly was all of the sudden his best friend. She was going over his house, and shit.So I was ma suspect. I figured they were dating after a few weeks. I just waited for her to tell me, not that i was mad or anything, cuz i was not attracted to him. I just don't like my intelligence being insulted. Does anyone? So I'm in 2nd block, chillin' and this dude who rides her bus is telling me that she tellin' everyone I don't know and that everything was all good. ( Like i was dumb) I waited until i got home and decided to call her on it. I simply asked" Is there anything you want to tell me?" This chick got defensive and had the audacity to say " Is there anything you want to know?"---- PAUSE----- Now this is where keeping it real went horribly wrong for her. You know I have mood swings. I was like " You really just gone insult my intelligence like that?" and from that point i just remember my mother coming home and looking at me like I was crazy cuz I was screaming all kinda craziness into the phone. My signature is to just hang up and leave the person messed up.
How can you be someone's best friend and even think of doing some shit like that? Anyway I was like whatever, just didn't conversate or associate with her after that point. We eventually became real cool again and are friends today, but we can never talk about the situation without someone getting heated again. The moral of the story is Make sure you and your friends have opposite taste in guys and be very very well versed in Girl Code ( even though I have been flagrantly violating it lately)

I ain't even tripping

hmmm kids... What should Nikki tell you today?? Uhm... Idk. So here is the thing. I realized that drama is something that though I don't want it, will inevitably follow me,Where ever I go as long as I am still me and the sun still rises in the east then there is gonna be drama. I don't have a problem with that. What i do have a problem with is salty assed people.

I chose to live my life low sodium, substituting the salt for ... sugar. Sugar is so much sweeter. I don't particularly care for feeling some type of way. I just don't have the time or the energy. As Diddy said it best " Emotions will have you kicking yourself in the ass". And sorry, but i ain't got time for bruises. 2009 the year of triflin' get your money and your game right!

Bust it wide open...

LOL... I realized that last semester i really did put things on blast via this website. I fully intend on continuing to put a lot out there. People are hilarious to me! Especially guys, I guess many feel salty, and some feel slighted, and i really genuinely could care less.Lol. So Buckle your seat belts I'm about to say some scandalous things.

Maybe?

Things are finally getting back to normalcy. No more having to double check and see just what lies have been spread from day to day. I find it all to have been pretty entertaining,comical, and pathetic. Anytime you have to sabotage others to feel better about you, just let's all know you are a sad little person. I could go off and act a fool, but the reality of the situation is I don't have to. Those who try to cast a negative light on me, only see that they make themselves look bad. I don't have to talk about people or spread lies to feel good about me. That's all I'm sayin'. I don't get females, never have and never will, that's why i go hard with guys there is none of the catty BS.

As i said life is good.Be blessed!

Busted Windows

I've been so M.I.A... but the topic of the day is something that we all know about o too well!!! RELATIONSHIPS.
So I went to this relationship forum on wednesday and it went there and back. It addressed issues that were really actually things that needed to be addressed in my own relationships. I wasn't going to go in the first place, however it was something that i needed to do. Make appearances and what not. Remember it's not necessarily what you know, it's who you know.But any way back to the Forum. It was very insightful, and it made me want to kick myself in the a$$ for some of my past relationships. Now I know how to better communicate (in theory) what I want.

Sometimey people!

Today's annoyance: Sometimey people, sometimes they are down for you and sometimes you can't get them on the phone when you really need them. They will ride... For free. But the first mention of Gas money or money period... Drama ensues. I don't like these types. The type that really don't want to be around you, so they have to bring someone else with them in order to feel comfortable. Why is this? Why even go out with people you don't like? To me that's fakery. And Y'all know know how I feel about Fakery. I don't like it, and I can't understand for the life of me, why people don't think that they will eventually be exposed for who and what they really are!!

Rehab Forever!

What happened to waiting to find out the truth?

I am in no way in support of Domestic Violence so yeah with that said. Why is everyone completely againt Chris Brown? I feel like something got him caught up and that thing was Rhianna. So what she is pretty? She is the "it" girl right now. And they were something that many envied. However, we shouldn't envy what we don't have full knowledge of, not should we judge when we don't have all the evidence in the case.

No, Chris. No,Chris, No!!!

Chris Brown has supposedly beat Rihanna down y'all and sources are saying that it has a lil something to do with those sores on her lip.photographic evidence I mean the herpes is not something to play with, nor will it ever go away. I'd whoop some azz over herpes myself.