HollabackGirl

Again I went out of town this past weekend, I ate more than i needed to and enjoyed life for awhile, before i got into the thick of finals and other stressful events.
Anyway, I hadn't talked to thing 1 in a few days(besides a status I had posted on my facebook) Anyway I had gotten a little bored so i decided to text him... A few minutes go by and I recieve a text back.

Thing 1: Don't wanna talk right now.

I proceeded to show my cousins because I was thoroughly offended, I tend to take things personal. They were like " Whoa, where did that come from" and as we are discussing the situation, minus some small details, you know like the fact we have crazy sexual chemistry. Anywho in the midst of this he sends another text.

Thing 1: Nothing against you.

So this makes me feel better, I just replied " Gotcha, it's cool." No need to get all into the dude's business or do the whole pity thing. I don't do that A. Because each guy is different, and B. A lot of people don't like you to feel bad for them. So I did what one of my teachers told me. K.I.S.S Keep It Simple Sweetheart. I basically said I understand and I took no offense without being wordy with it.I didn't say " Hope you ok." Or any other corny statement, because I don't think we are at that level where we really care about each other's well being. I think he knows that even though I act a particular way, I really am sensitive. I just appreciated the thought, and that's progress. I am still doing what I do,I still have a few guys on deck. There is this guy Lousiana, that I have to talk about next!

Until then...

Swagger on a hundred,thousand,trillion....

Swag...

You may not have heard about Swag, and that was unintenional. He just was not as significant as others have been. He had so much potential... but there was drama from the gate. You know that broad that went around spreading rumors and lies on me... well he was her ex. He was pretty significant to her as well... I think by now we should give her a name, and I will call her Badger, because well...she looks like one. Anyway. Swag was Badger's ex and I somehow always love trouble, and I find myself in it often.

ANYWAY... I was going to this event out of town a few months ago. And I decided to randomly message him, he was going to the same event so we said we'd see each other. Anyways didn't see him,My girl Vixen saw him he saw her and it looked as though he was looking for me. hmmm... i message him, about how maybe if we had each other's numbers then we would have been able to meet up... Numbers are exchanged as well as a few text messages here and there. I wanted to hang out, we'd make plans, he'd always come up with something he had to do. I knew that he was a busy guy, because I had been there during the duration of his relationship with the Badger.Anyway never hung out, never hit me up... But now you feel some type of way???

The night I hooked up with Thing 1, I had contacted him, and wanted to hang out... but you guessed it, he wasn't trying to hang out. If you go back and read "Stranger things have happened", you will see that rather than calling me, he called Thing 1, ha it all encircles each other right? He wasn't really trying to get to know me, or chill with me, but then you find out your boy got with me you feel slighted? I guess I was supposed to wait for him. NEWS FLASH... I'm not waiting for you!

So long story short guys, please don't be salty when you find out that a girl was really doing the damn thing and you was tryna sleep. Be upset with yourself, but don't take it out on her. Take it out on yourself! Don't even get mad at your boy, you both had the same oppurtunity. He just knew what he wanted and went for it... I am in no way obligated or ever was obligated to Swag. Sure I liked him, or maybe was just attracted to him, but he wasn't doing anything to try to further the realtionship, it was just a flirtation. Nothing more, and nothing less.

I ain't even tripping

hmmm kids... What should Nikki tell you today?? Uhm... Idk. So here is the thing. I realized that drama is something that though I don't want it, will inevitably follow me,Where ever I go as long as I am still me and the sun still rises in the east then there is gonna be drama. I don't have a problem with that. What i do have a problem with is salty assed people.

I chose to live my life low sodium, substituting the salt for ... sugar. Sugar is so much sweeter. I don't particularly care for feeling some type of way. I just don't have the time or the energy. As Diddy said it best " Emotions will have you kicking yourself in the ass". And sorry, but i ain't got time for bruises. 2009 the year of triflin' get your money and your game right!

...I am not your average chick!

I constantly ask myself, why do you act like a guy? Why can’t you just catch feelings like a normal chick? In my opinion there are three types of people in relationships, the played, the players, and those who try to play but get caught. I am a player after all relationships are just a game really. And what is game? It’s strategy! Everything in life is about strategy; if you don’t have the right strategy then you will lose and be a simp. Being sprung… well that happens to us all. Please never say never, because the day you say never is the day that karma determines you are about to be her new bussit baby! Lol. I have been influenced by real life. True story many people don’t know what they want and when you don’t set clear boundaries, problems ensue. You can say you aren’t mad when things fall short of your expectations, but the reality of the situation we all become disenchanted, because in the back of our minds we all know (male or female) we wondered what could be! So in reality, it is more beneficial to be guy minded. I rarely catch feelings, I think if I were really a guy people would say that I am an asshole. Cuz I’ve been told that I am an asshole for the way that I treat guys. So in fact, are they calling themselves assholes because that’s the way they treat girls? hmmmm I tried to remedy that in the past, but I don’t see the point when I tried acting like a girl, it just didn’t feel right o yeah and I was acting real simp. “Say that I’m simpin, sprung, all of the above.”- Neyo

Busted Windows

I've been so M.I.A... but the topic of the day is something that we all know about o too well!!! RELATIONSHIPS.
So I went to this relationship forum on wednesday and it went there and back. It addressed issues that were really actually things that needed to be addressed in my own relationships. I wasn't going to go in the first place, however it was something that i needed to do. Make appearances and what not. Remember it's not necessarily what you know, it's who you know.But any way back to the Forum. It was very insightful, and it made me want to kick myself in the a$$ for some of my past relationships. Now I know how to better communicate (in theory) what I want.