What's on deck???
What's up with that?
Really dude?
el oh el Smiley face
Was that it?
**** They will be in no particular order, but o well... i mean stuff happens right? lol
Monday, August 10, 2009
I'm back...
Alas I am back... and i have something to say!!! something real interesting to say. This summer I was really trippin'... maybe even got caught slipping but I have more than one story to tell this year!!! If you have been missing my tales of Tom foolery and utter craziness... never fear.Baby... I'm back!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Loving you is like a battle...
And we both end up with scars...
Vixen told me that Thing 1 and I should just get it in and get it over with. Trust me, I have thought about it... O have I thought about it, but the truth of the matter sometimes after sex I feel some type of way. I don't want a repeat situation of Number 1. I knew better than to even go down that road...
The last couple of days have been really difficult for me... I feel like a kid with ADHD, my attention is not fixed on any one thing. I want to focus on things, but there is so much stuff going on that I can't just focus on one thing at a time. So here is the thing, Number 2 is going to get his own little story so I will reserve that for later. I don’t really know what the situation with that is, and I am not ready to deal with it right now, as immature as that sounds I am not ready.
Thing 1 is well, I want him in my life, but at the same time, I don’t. He is the type of guy you are intrigued by and want to know more about. At the same time he puts you at arm’s length, and doesn’t want you to get too close. I don’t know how to deal with him, so I just don’t. I like/liked him as much as I hate to admit it, it’s true. I sometimes revert to my inner female and read too deeply into situations. True enough we had an insane evening a few weeks back, but that is where it ends. That’s all that is ever going to be, because I look at his statuses on facebook ( lol… I’m not stalking, they pop up in the mini-feed) and he is always referring to “Her”… Who the Eff is she? Because He says things that can not possibly be in reference to me(or are they?), so I’m thinking in my mind “ He a hoe ass nigga”… cuz if this chick is oh so important, why are you getting with me? And not on some light weight stuff, I’m talking about crazy sexual energy. More so, than I have ever experienced in my 21 years…I mean last weekend we were supposed to get together, but… I still have that thing about being a jump off, and I’m not trying to become a smut, and I kinda was all over Louisiana earlier in the evening. ( Story later)
So I wanted to be in a relationship, and now I don’t know what I want. I don’t want to be caught up, and I don’t want to be out of the loop.
I wish things were a little less complex, than what they currently are!
Vixen told me that Thing 1 and I should just get it in and get it over with. Trust me, I have thought about it... O have I thought about it, but the truth of the matter sometimes after sex I feel some type of way. I don't want a repeat situation of Number 1. I knew better than to even go down that road...
The last couple of days have been really difficult for me... I feel like a kid with ADHD, my attention is not fixed on any one thing. I want to focus on things, but there is so much stuff going on that I can't just focus on one thing at a time. So here is the thing, Number 2 is going to get his own little story so I will reserve that for later. I don’t really know what the situation with that is, and I am not ready to deal with it right now, as immature as that sounds I am not ready.
Thing 1 is well, I want him in my life, but at the same time, I don’t. He is the type of guy you are intrigued by and want to know more about. At the same time he puts you at arm’s length, and doesn’t want you to get too close. I don’t know how to deal with him, so I just don’t. I like/liked him as much as I hate to admit it, it’s true. I sometimes revert to my inner female and read too deeply into situations. True enough we had an insane evening a few weeks back, but that is where it ends. That’s all that is ever going to be, because I look at his statuses on facebook ( lol… I’m not stalking, they pop up in the mini-feed) and he is always referring to “Her”… Who the Eff is she? Because He says things that can not possibly be in reference to me(or are they?), so I’m thinking in my mind “ He a hoe ass nigga”… cuz if this chick is oh so important, why are you getting with me? And not on some light weight stuff, I’m talking about crazy sexual energy. More so, than I have ever experienced in my 21 years…I mean last weekend we were supposed to get together, but… I still have that thing about being a jump off, and I’m not trying to become a smut, and I kinda was all over Louisiana earlier in the evening. ( Story later)
So I wanted to be in a relationship, and now I don’t know what I want. I don’t want to be caught up, and I don’t want to be out of the loop.
I wish things were a little less complex, than what they currently are!
Friday, April 24, 2009
Give them what they want
Many people have asked me why I haven't talked about my encounters with Number 2. Well here it is...Well here is part one. anyway....
I went out of town a few months ago, and had a blast at a popular night spot with my girls and some new friends.We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves,I guess you could say that this was the type of event where everyone is blaming things on the alcohol. Not gonna lie we were on that ciroc obama,Tipsy but not gone. *Earlier there were chicks in line throwing up from sipping a lil somethin too much.* Anyways, Number two had been wanting the business for months and I hadn't had sex in like a year, so I was like... Whatever why not? A few text messages were exchanged. He was upset with me, because when he had seen me earlier in the hotel lobby. I didn't give him a hug. So I replied " All you want is a hug?" He knows me, and knew that at times i bluff. He said something to the effect of " I want the hug, because you aren't going to do anymore." Maybe I was turned on, by the fact he told me I wasn't going to do something. It was almost as if it was a challenge. so I replied " Say what you want, you may just get it." This was all around 12... FAST FORWARD We didn't end up meeting up in his room until like 4:30 or 5... I was plenty pissed by this time because hella groupies had followed us there. Ended up getting it in the Bathroom. Which I have a thing for places so it was no biggie for me. I like the risk of being caught, it heightens the senses. Anywho.We had to be discreet because he told me he had a boo, and I have a plethora of young men on the roster, but none of them are getting the business. So It looked bad on both parts, he however lied. She is not just boo, she is girlfriend. And if you have read the blog you know I despise getting in the middle of people's relationships.
Did i mention I lost my voice and had to whisper? Lol...he was like " are you sure you want to do this?"... Pause- Does a crackhead want crack?-resume.
I was yeah. So it began.
Did I mention I hadn't had sex in like a year, and Number one was not in the magnum club? Anyways, number two is and anyone who has gotten it in in the bathroom before know what you are dealing with. I still had my 6 inch heels( that were ready to come off) He sat on toilet and I got on... I like being in control for some reason. Excuse the rest- It hurt like hell, I felt like a brand new virgin. After i got used to it, I was good. Now,we catch a rhythem but he wants to hit it from the back, so we do that for awhile. The guy likes just switching it up, I had no problem with that... So I was like okay cool... then he was like let's 69...
PAUSE
( I had never given head before, I had recieved)
I was like ehhhh... but What the hell? Why not right? So we getting it, and he decided that he just wanted to give me head...so I let him, and I came. So it was all good. I got mine, so the ordeal was sealed. But then he's like " Can I taste you again?... ( Head twice in one night?Sure. Let me reinterate I can't make this shit up) Anyway, after that we pretty much parted ways, and forgive me if I was not as detailed with this as I was with Thing 1... I just can't remember it all in detail. But Part 2 is more recent.A lil over a month ago. That was an adventure lls.
I went out of town a few months ago, and had a blast at a popular night spot with my girls and some new friends.We thoroughly enjoyed ourselves,I guess you could say that this was the type of event where everyone is blaming things on the alcohol. Not gonna lie we were on that ciroc obama,Tipsy but not gone. *Earlier there were chicks in line throwing up from sipping a lil somethin too much.* Anyways, Number two had been wanting the business for months and I hadn't had sex in like a year, so I was like... Whatever why not? A few text messages were exchanged. He was upset with me, because when he had seen me earlier in the hotel lobby. I didn't give him a hug. So I replied " All you want is a hug?" He knows me, and knew that at times i bluff. He said something to the effect of " I want the hug, because you aren't going to do anymore." Maybe I was turned on, by the fact he told me I wasn't going to do something. It was almost as if it was a challenge. so I replied " Say what you want, you may just get it." This was all around 12... FAST FORWARD We didn't end up meeting up in his room until like 4:30 or 5... I was plenty pissed by this time because hella groupies had followed us there. Ended up getting it in the Bathroom. Which I have a thing for places so it was no biggie for me. I like the risk of being caught, it heightens the senses. Anywho.We had to be discreet because he told me he had a boo, and I have a plethora of young men on the roster, but none of them are getting the business. So It looked bad on both parts, he however lied. She is not just boo, she is girlfriend. And if you have read the blog you know I despise getting in the middle of people's relationships.
Did i mention I lost my voice and had to whisper? Lol...he was like " are you sure you want to do this?"... Pause- Does a crackhead want crack?-resume.
I was yeah. So it began.
Did I mention I hadn't had sex in like a year, and Number one was not in the magnum club? Anyways, number two is and anyone who has gotten it in in the bathroom before know what you are dealing with. I still had my 6 inch heels( that were ready to come off) He sat on toilet and I got on... I like being in control for some reason. Excuse the rest- It hurt like hell, I felt like a brand new virgin. After i got used to it, I was good. Now,we catch a rhythem but he wants to hit it from the back, so we do that for awhile. The guy likes just switching it up, I had no problem with that... So I was like okay cool... then he was like let's 69...
PAUSE
( I had never given head before, I had recieved)
I was like ehhhh... but What the hell? Why not right? So we getting it, and he decided that he just wanted to give me head...so I let him, and I came. So it was all good. I got mine, so the ordeal was sealed. But then he's like " Can I taste you again?... ( Head twice in one night?Sure. Let me reinterate I can't make this shit up) Anyway, after that we pretty much parted ways, and forgive me if I was not as detailed with this as I was with Thing 1... I just can't remember it all in detail. But Part 2 is more recent.A lil over a month ago. That was an adventure lls.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Louisiana!!!!
I love southern boys!!! Yes, I can do the North, but the south is where it is at. Now most of y'all will want that ATL boy, yeah they fly and swag is on point, but when it comes down to it..... I love boys from Louisiana!!!They are the effin' best. Texas is cool too, but Louisiana... It's something about how laid back they are, but fly at teh same time. A Louisiana boy can say " Shawty, What's your name?" and you aren't even offended, you just laugh and say " My name is ___________"! *giggle *giggle *smirk *smirk. Anyway, so there is this guy who I so happened to have met, he's a Pisces just like myself, so I'm thinkin' this could be an interesting encounter.If this encounter ever goes down. I'm going to see him tomorrow, and everything from here on out is about to be how everything is for me... straight up. Wild!!!!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Playing me, means you are playing yourself.
So, Thing 1 played me y'all. He was really putting on the show! You know how someone acts when it's just you and them?Yeah, it's a different story than when you are in public. See I don't play that game!!! Don't do that behind closed doors bull shit! I want to say that yes, I did care and was starting to like him, but he has thoroughly pissed me off. He don't have to worry about me,as Trina(love her) said it best. " You tryna play the diamond mami, foolish like ashanti". Naw, I was halfway simpin', almost at the cusp of letting myself chase a nigga. But Cheers let's make a toast for me having Vixen to tell me, " NO, Don't do it, reconsider read some lita -ture on the subject."- Fuck it... LOL. Everyone said he would do this, and I really wanted to let a dude have a fair chance this time. I guess My Big Bro was right and I really do attract the wrong types... Now most chicks would want to go sit and eat ice cream and watch lifetime all damn day. Me? Well I'm gonna do what any chick who isn't sad, salty, or mad would do... I'm gonna live my life. One monkey doesn't stop the show, and won't start running it anytime soon.I was gonna stop dogging dudes out, I was gonna be a sweetheart, and let things be like they were supposed to be, but you know what that seems too much like right.lol...So... Thing 1 is exxxxxxeeeeddd out.
Monday, April 20, 2009
HollabackGirl
Again I went out of town this past weekend, I ate more than i needed to and enjoyed life for awhile, before i got into the thick of finals and other stressful events.
Anyway, I hadn't talked to thing 1 in a few days(besides a status I had posted on my facebook) Anyway I had gotten a little bored so i decided to text him... A few minutes go by and I recieve a text back.
Thing 1: Don't wanna talk right now.
I proceeded to show my cousins because I was thoroughly offended, I tend to take things personal. They were like " Whoa, where did that come from" and as we are discussing the situation, minus some small details, you know like the fact we have crazy sexual chemistry. Anywho in the midst of this he sends another text.
Thing 1: Nothing against you.
So this makes me feel better, I just replied " Gotcha, it's cool." No need to get all into the dude's business or do the whole pity thing. I don't do that A. Because each guy is different, and B. A lot of people don't like you to feel bad for them. So I did what one of my teachers told me. K.I.S.S Keep It Simple Sweetheart. I basically said I understand and I took no offense without being wordy with it.I didn't say " Hope you ok." Or any other corny statement, because I don't think we are at that level where we really care about each other's well being. I think he knows that even though I act a particular way, I really am sensitive. I just appreciated the thought, and that's progress. I am still doing what I do,I still have a few guys on deck. There is this guy Lousiana, that I have to talk about next!
Until then...
Anyway, I hadn't talked to thing 1 in a few days(besides a status I had posted on my facebook) Anyway I had gotten a little bored so i decided to text him... A few minutes go by and I recieve a text back.
Thing 1: Don't wanna talk right now.
I proceeded to show my cousins because I was thoroughly offended, I tend to take things personal. They were like " Whoa, where did that come from" and as we are discussing the situation, minus some small details, you know like the fact we have crazy sexual chemistry. Anywho in the midst of this he sends another text.
Thing 1: Nothing against you.
So this makes me feel better, I just replied " Gotcha, it's cool." No need to get all into the dude's business or do the whole pity thing. I don't do that A. Because each guy is different, and B. A lot of people don't like you to feel bad for them. So I did what one of my teachers told me. K.I.S.S Keep It Simple Sweetheart. I basically said I understand and I took no offense without being wordy with it.I didn't say " Hope you ok." Or any other corny statement, because I don't think we are at that level where we really care about each other's well being. I think he knows that even though I act a particular way, I really am sensitive. I just appreciated the thought, and that's progress. I am still doing what I do,I still have a few guys on deck. There is this guy Lousiana, that I have to talk about next!
Until then...
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