So I was gone for a minute! I've missed this!!! So what's new with me? Well the semester is over... and after everything... I still managed a 3.5 GPA. so I am happy about that and proud that i didn't let drama mess up business. Now i know why they say never mix business and pleasure. So i plan on doing what i do best, playing hard, and working even harder. Can you believe i got an A- in precalc? Me either...lol... Anyway, a lot of things were thrown into the air.
Also, My new word or phrase is : "I'm indifferent"... I think it sounds better than saying i don't care. It sounds a little more like some thought went into my response when i say it. " Do you like this shirt?" - My response..." I'm indifferent"... bitchy? Slightly.
I feel like this year was a year of many firsts. But I learned to except everything and roll with the punches... That's what life is really about... Being Proactive and not reactive. Calm under 500 degrees.
I've looked over these many blogs and realized where i was and what i was thinking at the time each blog was written. I am not even mad at any of the situations anymore, because they are all laughable. sometimes laughing is the best medicine and the cure to everything. I'm out...
Blogs on deck:
" Memorable moments in entertainment:2008"
" My New Years Resoultion"
" He is the reason, I have such a big ego"
"Kells"
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Rehab...
I know i said i would not be writing anymore blogs until the 20th... but this i can not help.
"And I'll never give myself to another the way i gave it to ya..."- Rihanna ♥
I feel like i finally checked out of "rehab" and i feel like this was a really bad "trip". They say that if you love something you should let it go, and if it comes back to you it's yours. I don't necessarily believe in that anymore. I thought that i could move past the hurt and not think of it anymore. I thought wrong. The fact of the matter is rather than cleaning up the situation and making things good. We (This guy i met my freshmen year in Ms. Baldwin's Eng 101 class) decided to sweep things under the rug. According to 12 steps, the first step is admitting that there is a problem. He pretends that things are all good, and he will hit me up, when it seems pretty convenient for him. Does he ever stop to think that he is impeding my progress. I am having fun, meeting a lot of guys and they think i am pretty. Never once has he ever said anything that validates why he continues to try to communicate with me. When i asked questions about the status of what "we" were he would dodge the question. I didn't ask because i wanted to be exclusive. I asked because i was talking to someone else at the time and i was trying to evaluate whether i should take that step with the other guy. Silly me, because that guy is awesome. He has been there when things were just ill. He cares about me and all that he asks is that i am honest with him. When I experienced the shooting incident, he was there.However the game completely changed earlier this semester. I forgave that indiscretion, because i was not jealous nor will i ever be.Let's face it i was talking to someone else too, but i never made it official. He picked her for whatever reason and he liked her more than me. It was cool, because it is not the first time nor will it be the last that another female is chosen over me. It happens to the best of us. I was going to give things a second try, but after he was trying to get with my friend(via facebook) like i was not going to find out, I was just like," girl let it go." So there you have it. I am over it, and over him. I am having too much fun, to even consider going back to a time before, When I wasn't that pretty girl everyone wants to hang with on the weekends :)
"And I'll never give myself to another the way i gave it to ya..."- Rihanna ♥
I feel like i finally checked out of "rehab" and i feel like this was a really bad "trip". They say that if you love something you should let it go, and if it comes back to you it's yours. I don't necessarily believe in that anymore. I thought that i could move past the hurt and not think of it anymore. I thought wrong. The fact of the matter is rather than cleaning up the situation and making things good. We (This guy i met my freshmen year in Ms. Baldwin's Eng 101 class) decided to sweep things under the rug. According to 12 steps, the first step is admitting that there is a problem. He pretends that things are all good, and he will hit me up, when it seems pretty convenient for him. Does he ever stop to think that he is impeding my progress. I am having fun, meeting a lot of guys and they think i am pretty. Never once has he ever said anything that validates why he continues to try to communicate with me. When i asked questions about the status of what "we" were he would dodge the question. I didn't ask because i wanted to be exclusive. I asked because i was talking to someone else at the time and i was trying to evaluate whether i should take that step with the other guy. Silly me, because that guy is awesome. He has been there when things were just ill. He cares about me and all that he asks is that i am honest with him. When I experienced the shooting incident, he was there.However the game completely changed earlier this semester. I forgave that indiscretion, because i was not jealous nor will i ever be.Let's face it i was talking to someone else too, but i never made it official. He picked her for whatever reason and he liked her more than me. It was cool, because it is not the first time nor will it be the last that another female is chosen over me. It happens to the best of us. I was going to give things a second try, but after he was trying to get with my friend(via facebook) like i was not going to find out, I was just like," girl let it go." So there you have it. I am over it, and over him. I am having too much fun, to even consider going back to a time before, When I wasn't that pretty girl everyone wants to hang with on the weekends :)
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Leave me alone( until December 20th)
If you are trying to get me to do something right now, you are setting yourself up for failure,because the fact is this, i don't have the time nor do i have the energy! If your name is not precalc... methods... sociology, Human Development, abnormal psych, you don't exist right now, and you are not important....Right now. So do not be suprised if you get snapped at, I am not in the mood, and i need to do well. This will be the last blog until December 20th, yeah 18 days. That's when i will be done with my finals, and also when my bestest Darron will be back. So maybe I will not even write one until the morning of the 21st! Stress is something real, and i don't need other things complicating it. Like Diddy said " Emotions will have you kicking yourself in the ass". I can't afford emotions or this revolving door that is my life!
Monday, December 1, 2008
Pressure
Tis the season for all the professors to throw everything at us, but the kitchen sink! Tis the season where we get no sleep, and wonder if we really absorbed anything that we just read. I am feeling pretty pressured right now, but with no pressure comes the inability to appreciate any of the fruits of your labor. Working for someting is so much more rewarding than when it is easily given. This philoophy can be taken into all facets of your life. When you don't have to work for something, you don't appreciate it... When you know mommy and daddy are gonna pay for your mistakes you rarely learn the lesson. ( Then again this is coming from someone who is spoiled) The thing is we all forget what importance the simplest things have because we are so preoccupied with the big things. "Breathe. Stretch. Shake. Let it go" MASE said it best. Live your life, and worry about what you have to do, keep your eyes on the prize! This too shall pass, and you will be all the better for it. It's the little things in life we forget. When you get back to the basics all the convolution no longer is relavent!
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